Not much to say

So, I guess I've been slacking on my updates. Surprisingly, there's really not much new. I can't believe I'm already 30 weeks pregnant. I definitely feel very pregnant. This pregnancy has been much more difficult than my last one. For one, I'm much more tired. But I don't know if that's just because of the pregnancy or because I'm working. With Eric, I was subbing, so on good days I worked, on bad days I didn't. I don't really have that choice this time. I'm also a lot more uncomfortable. I figured my body would be used to this since I've done it before, but I don't think it is. Other than that, life's pretty much the same. I'm still teaching 7th grade and although I enjoy it, I very much miss Kindergarten. I did take a little break though this past weekend. The whole family went down to Palm Springs. It was nice to take a few days off of work, although when I came back I had horrible sub notes so I was not very happy about that. Anyways, here are some pictures. I'll try to update more often. :)

Update

So a few days ago, I think I felt the baby move for the first time. I somewhat remember that the first time I felt it with Eric is felt more like a flutter, this time it felt like a slide I guess. It felt like a hand was being slid against my uterus back and forth. Somewhat weird. On another note, I'm going to have a "gender check" ultrasound on the 20th down in Costa Mesa (thanks Sara!). I'm really excited. I wasn't going to find out the sex but I got talked (more like pressured) into it. One thing I am somewhat worried about, although I probably should feel blessed, is that I've lost 6 pounds in the past month, 4 of those pounds being in the past 2 weeks. So that makes my total weight of 4 pounds so far. I know every pregnancy is different but I keep reading that at this point in my second trimester I should be gaining almost a pound a week, not losing it. At my last appointment my doctor was excited that I had lost 2 pounds, he had yelled at me the appointment before for gaining 10 pounds in the first 2 months. I have another appointment on the 17th, so I'll just wait for his reaction then.
Eric had a trike-a-thon this past Friday. I wish I could have been there but Tony got some pictures and a video of it. He did 7 laps, woohoo. We practiced everyday the week of so he was ready for it. I'm just happy he was able to do at least one. :)

Busy weekend

So, my memorial weekend was quite a roller coaster. We had fun Sat. and Sun., going garage sale hopping, swimming, etc. Then, on Monday morning it was a rush to the hospital, definitely a down side of the weekend. I absolutely hate the doctors up here. Not only did we spend almost 4 hours in the emergency room, (over an hour just for the doctor to review the ultrasounds), but they totally freaked us out for no reason. I went to my regular doctor today where he told me I'm completely fine, and the doctors up here are idiots and over dramatic. What a relief to hear. He also told me that I should spend the extra hour to go to the emergency room down the hill instead of going up here. So, overall, everything is fine and I waisted my memorial day in bed for no reason. I guess the upside is that the witch of ultrasound lady showed my one quick snapshot of the baby.

First Doctor's Appointment

So I had my first OB appointment today. I wasn't expecting much since the nurse said all it would consist of was paperwork and getting my history. When I got there the doctor was at a delivery so we had to wait about an hour. When I finally got in they told me they would be doing an ultrasound. This really surprised me since with Eric I didn't have my first one till 12 weeks, and that was only because the doctor couldn't find the heartbeat with the Doppler. Anyways, so I called Tony to get him out of the car, and we got to have our first ultrasound. It was awesome! Tiny little thing, but still really cool. The baby measured at 1.95 cm which puts me exactly where I thought I was, almost 9 weeks, and my due date December 4th(even though the doctor wants it at December 6th and I have no idea why). Eric was 10 days early and was 8.15 lbs, which I informed the doctor of. He said "Oh, well we'll definitely keep an eye on this one." Yet still moved the due date up 2 days. Also, after I told him I had had a C-Section with Eric he told me I had to have a C-Section with this one. I really don't want to have a C-Section and all the research I've done says a VBAC is totally safe and very common now a days. He said the hospital won't allow it. Somewhat frustrated. I think I'm just going to ask not to have a C-Section, they can't make me have one if the baby is safe, right? Anyways, that's my story. Very exciting and I can't wait till my next ultrasound.

Doctors

Went to the doctors today. I'm definitely pregnant. :) yay! My doctor was actually able to refer me to a gyno that comes up here once a month, so I won't have to make so many visits down the hill, which is awesome. I still haven't told anyone from work yet, just friends and family. I'm really debating whether or not I'm going to find out the sex. I had decided that I wanted it kept secret, since I've already gone through the experience of knowing a head of time, but now I'm starting to second guess myself. My mom says finding out during the ultrasound is the same excitement as finding out during the birth, (she's done both), so I'm not sure. Also, Tony says he wants to know even if I decide not to, and I know that he'll tell someone. I have a strong feeling that it's a girl. According to the Chinese calendar, which is supposed to be like 95% correct, it's gonna be a girl. I'm also feeling a lot more nausea than I did with Eric, and...I don't know....I just think it's a girl. I really want another boy, but having a girl will be lots of fun...and drama I'm sure. So, any thoughts about knowing the sex or waiting till birth? Please share! Thanks!

It's starting

So, I'm already starting to feel a little yucky. I had a great pregnancy with Eric, no morning sickness and not many mood swings (I didn't say zero, but not many). I'm already starting to feel REALLY tired all the time, and my tummy just doesn't feel right when I think of any type of food that isn't perfect. It's a different experience, one that I hope I won't have too long. Other than that, things are going pretty good. I have a doctors appointment on April 9th and my doctor will refer me to an obgyn after that. You can't have babies up in Big Bear so I'm sure he or she will be down the hill. I'll update often.

2 lines

I'm so excited, but I'm trying not to get too excited because it's so early. I literally woke up from a nap today, figured might as well, and took the test. I wasn't expecting to see the second line show up, since many haven't recently. Then, I kind of saw a second line, I kept thinking, I'm wanting to see so I'm making it up in my head, and I put the test down. I picked it up a few minutes later and realized the second line was clearly there. I ran up the stairs so Tony could check it. Definitely positive. So, that's my news. :) Oh, also, the Ellen show we went on will be on on Monday, we'll definitely be on TV since we were on an aisle and Ellen dance right next to us.

Ellen Show

Tony and I are going to see the Ellen show this coming Thursday. I'm so excited! I can't wait to find out who is going to be on. We won't find out until we get there. I'll let you know when it's on so you can watch it. :)

They're not pink!

I don't know why they call them pink slips. They're not pink, and it's a packet, not a slip. So, I may not have a job next year. I knew it was coming but it really doesn't make it any easier. I finally got my dream job, and it may be taken away. It just really sucks. Do I even start looking for another job? There's a chance that I may get the job back, even up to the first day of school next year. If I find another job somewhere else, that means moving, but then if I get asked to come back here, do I move back? I really want to raise Eric here and I want to teach here. I don't know how I'm going to be able to give that up.
Sorry, if all this doesn't make sense...it's just frustrated, depressed, stressed, rambling.

Trip to Zoo

So, this weekend, in an atempt to get away from the snow, we went to the Zoo. This is Eric's first trip to the zoo and he LOVED it. Well, until he got tired and fussy. Although, I have to admit, I think Tony and I enjoyed it more than Eric. It was really good weather, not too hot, and we left right before it started raining. Tony was most excited to see the elephants and I really wanted to see the giraffs. It was a great vacation and I really can't wait to go again. We ended up staying in a cabin and then going gem hunting the next day, which was a blast. I found a whole bunch of nice tourmalines, quartz, and some small garnets. I'm going to try to get a few of them faceted. But, now we're back up in Big Bear and the storm is coming in. Might get up to 4 feet, not looking forward to it. Of course, my first winter back up here it has to be the worst winter in like 30 years. I guess it gives me something to look forward to next winter. :)

Not today.....

So, I found out today that I'm not pregnant yet. It's a very weird feeling. Last time, first try and it worked. This time....not so much. But, I was sick during "that time" and there weren't very many...hmm..opportunities I guess. I guess, if anything, it gives me more time to lose more weight. I'm trying to see the good things so I'm not so sad about the situation. I talked to my mom this morning, where she informed me that it took her 3 years. Not something I really wanted to hear at that moment. I can't imagine 36 let downs.

I think it's harder because last time was so easy. We weren't even really trying, we were "not, not trying" as we called it. Maybe that works better, haha. I'll just start calling it that. I guess I just expected it to happen the first time. I'm not really sure how I feel. I'm kind of sad, but there's another feeling and I don't know how to explain it. It's not sadness, almost like an emptiness I guess. I mean, I had hoped that something was growing inside of me, and now knowing that there's nothing there it's just a little, well, empty.

Anyways, just thought I'd get something on here. Try to keep it up to date, haha. There's always next month. :)

I'm just not good at this blogging thing.

Well, what have I missed? Oh, my birthday, Christmas, and New Years. So...for my birthday, my mom took me to see the musical "Cats" in Costa Mesa. Last birthday I got to see Wicked, so I think it's going to be a little tradition from now on....I hope. It was lots of fun and I really enjoyed seeing it.
Christmas was great! My dad came down form Southern California. I'm glad he got to see Eric. It's been a year since he was here and Eric has grown a ton! Anyways....Eric got spoiled this year (when doesn't he?). He got a Cars couch, a mini jungle gym, a jeep, a train set, a Cars desk/toy chest, lots of clothes and other smaller toys. Too much really. His room is stuffed! Especially because we can't put his jungle gym outside because of the snow....so it's in his room.
I got a new watch, a digital picture frame, a XBOX game, and much more. I also got a new wedding ring for my anniversary to match my engagement ring. I love it....it's so pretty!
Also....kind of big news...Eric had surgery yesterday on his ears to get tubes placed in his ear drums. He's been having lots of ear infections and his speech is delayed, so it was coming. He's doing really well though, the recovery was like 2 hours long, and the surgery on lasted like 15 minutes.
Anyways, I think that's it for now. I promise I will try to post pictures. :)