So, I found out today that I'm not pregnant yet. It's a very weird feeling. Last time, first try and it worked. This time....not so much. But, I was sick during "that time" and there weren't very many...hmm..opportunities I guess. I guess, if anything, it gives me more time to lose more weight. I'm trying to see the good things so I'm not so sad about the situation. I talked to my mom this morning, where she informed me that it took her 3 years. Not something I really wanted to hear at that moment. I can't imagine 36 let downs.
I think it's harder because last time was so easy. We weren't even really trying, we were "not, not trying" as we called it. Maybe that works better, haha. I'll just start calling it that. I guess I just expected it to happen the first time. I'm not really sure how I feel. I'm kind of sad, but there's another feeling and I don't know how to explain it. It's not sadness, almost like an emptiness I guess. I mean, I had hoped that something was growing inside of me, and now knowing that there's nothing there it's just a little, well, empty.
Anyways, just thought I'd get something on here. Try to keep it up to date, haha. There's always next month. :)
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Sorry for the way you are feeling, Shauna. =(
After I had my miscarriage I wanted to be pregnant so badly... and each month it ached so much that I wasn't yet... again.
It'll happen.
Shauna...
I can TOTALLY relate.
We were NOT trying with Jack, using birth control...and, surprise!
With Molly, it took almost 2.5 years, and 2 miscarriages.
Take your time, enjoy your husband. Cherish each minute with Eric. It was so hard, but I am so thankful for the time I had with Jack, one on one...I didn't think that I would ever have almost a 5 year age difference between my kids, but, really, it's so much better and easier than I ever imagined.
It will happen for you...
Thank you so much for your support you guys! I really appreciate it.
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