They're not pink!

I don't know why they call them pink slips. They're not pink, and it's a packet, not a slip. So, I may not have a job next year. I knew it was coming but it really doesn't make it any easier. I finally got my dream job, and it may be taken away. It just really sucks. Do I even start looking for another job? There's a chance that I may get the job back, even up to the first day of school next year. If I find another job somewhere else, that means moving, but then if I get asked to come back here, do I move back? I really want to raise Eric here and I want to teach here. I don't know how I'm going to be able to give that up.
Sorry, if all this doesn't make sense...it's just frustrated, depressed, stressed, rambling.